new things

My kids are sick :( It's not so fun. And it doesn't help that I'm a little sick too. *Sigh*. Tis life though. Thankfully both of their fevers seems to have broke, Eli's fever keeps playing with me, it will go up and down and up and down. I feel so bad for them when they are sick. There is not much sadder then seeing your normally bouncing-off-the-walls toddler be so sick that all they do is lay on the couch and barely have enough energy to sit up to take a drink of water.

In other news, I got a job! I'm kind of excited about it, and scared. I haven't had a job (besides making cakes) since I had Gabriel. It's not like it's a high-stress job, I'm going back to being a waitress. I didn't want something that was going to stress me out a lot, or take too much time since I am still going to school full time and have both my boys. I just wanted something simple and part time, and thankfully that's what I got! I'm just nervous about the whole thing, mainly because for the first time in my life I have to look for a daycare for my children :(

I never wanted to put my kids in daycare and when I call daycares I never know what to ask. I mean, I never went to daycare, don't really know too many people whom take their kids to it, and never had to use it myself, what are you supposed to ask these people? I don't know. And I'm sad to think about leaving my kids with other people to teach them the things that I want to teach them. I know it's part of my life right now but that doesn't make it easy. I've always dreamt of being a stay at home mom and now that I can't be that 100% of the time anymore can be a hard pill to swallow sometimes. I know I'll be fine and I'll make it, and I and they will get used to it. I might just have to assume that I might cry the first day I drop them off. It's like when people have to drop their kids off at kindergarten for the first time, except this time, their babies (ok, toddlers, to me they are babies though). Ah! I'm gonna freak out.

I can handle this. I can handle this. I can handle this.

I know, you might think I'm over dramatic, but it's my babies that we're talking about here :)

My classes are almost done for the quarter! I'm so very ready for them to be done! Only 2.5 more weeks!  Next week with homework should be too awful, except there is a research paper that I haven't even started on yet that is due. But besides that, the homework looks very minimal for now! I'm ready for my two weeks of Christmas break :)