25 Weeks

Cravings: Fruit and CHOCOLATE!!!! Please, does anyone have some chocolate I can have? It's delicious! 

Symptoms: Things are getting loose... which means my lower back is shifting/hurting more. Also having lots of practice contractions, though I don't remember them hurting with the other two kids at this stage, but there is definitely discomfort this time around! Baby belly also popped quite a bit in the last two weeks. Two weeks ago, it was still hide-able. Now? Not so much. 

Complaints: Sore/painful back. 

Weight gain: I believe it's at -8lbs. I think I finally had my month (that we all seem to have when we're pregnant) where all the sudden you put on 5-6lbs in one month. 

Movement: Yes, I can see him move now too. He finally popped up and out enough! 

Doctor appointment results: Um, all I do is get frustrated when I go to my appointments :( This last time I got irritated because there was a medical student with him, which I normally don't mind, but I swear it made my doctor act like an idiot. He couldn't even find the top of my uterus, instead was pushing into my diaphragm, which hurt, and I'm laying there thinking 'um, it's exactly where it looks like I swallowed a cantaloupe... not somewhere magically higher dude' and then he tried passing it off saying 'oh, well, it's just so hard to find on her'.... cause somehow a 24 week uterus is hard to find on anyone, especially when it's popping out while you are laying down... Seriously? If a midwife can find it at 17-18 weeks, and a chiropractor can find it at 12 weeks, he should be able to find it at 24 weeks. Which, then, because he measured way up into my diaphragm, he said I measured 'big' at 26 weeks which irritated me even more because I NEVER measure big. With my other two kids, even when I was nice and big, I measured small, I never even measured on. So now, magically, even though my stomach is the same size as with the other two, I somehow measure big... hmm... maybe if he would have gone a good 2 inches lower, he would have had a more accurate measurement. Ok, so I'm slightly (ha!) more irritated then I should be about the whole thing, but I had Eli with me for his 3rd year check up, in which I talked to the doctor about a shot for Gabriel that he had a bad reaction too when he was younger, and then the doctor gave me this 20 minute lecture about how my kids are going to get sick and die because I don't vaccinate them when they are little and how I'm going to kill other peoples kids too, and how even though Gabriel had a really bad allergic reaction to the DTaP shot it does not mean he should not continue the shot... even though the papers that they give you at the hospital specifically say 'if you or your child have had 'this' reaction to getting the DTaP shot, they should NOT get another dose.' And another doctor that I used to go too also said Gabriel should not get the entire shot, only the DT part of it. And then this doctor refused to get me a separated shot for Gabriel with only the DT in it when he is supposed to go in for his 5 yr checkup in two months.  Seriously, so irritated! 

Also, I'm just permanently irritated with him that he insists my due date is October 19th because that's what the average women's due date would be with my LMP even though I have a way longer then average cycle and two ultrasounds have confirmed that baby should be due way later. I still go with my due date that I've gone with all along, which is in line with what the two ultrasounds I've had... and if they try to convince me I'm 'over due' when Ocober 19th comes along... well, I just may have to give them a piece of my mind. 

BTW, I've just had it with doctors lately. Hence my venting. Hence being way more irritated then needed. Hence needing a lot of chocolate lately. Hence this post being really long. 

Hence.

Hence.

It's kinda a fun word... 

Anyway...

You probably just went WAY further into my head then you ever wanted to go... sorry :) 
Mood: Stressed. 

Planning: Trying to find a place to have this baby. I know everyone thinks that it's about control, that I don't want to have another c-section, but honestly, I just want what is healthiest and safest for me and baby. And, I don't see why I should have to put baby boy and I at risk because of close minded doctors and stupid hospital policies. Ugh, if you saw my rant on facebook, you know how truly frustrated I am about this. 

Advice: I got some tips on doctors in the area. 

Dreams: I had a dream the other night where there was this girl, who was in danger and on the run, and one guy was trying to help her and protect her, and one guy was trying to go after her. Anyway, it's was like this awesome action film dream, involved with bombs, guns, planes, different countries, and even comedy. I kept hitting my snooze button just to see how it ended, but in the end, the fact that I had a client coming that morning and really needed to shower trumped the end of my dream. So, I never got to find out what happened... it was such a bummer! 

Baby Size: He's the size of a head of cauliflower. 

Cute Stuff: My kids :) 

Other events of the week: I feel like life has been kind of busy lately. It's just kind of been getting together with friends and family though. We had a fun 4th of July, 5th, 6th, and 7th of July too :) Then we've just been busy with trying to clean up the house and property from a big storm we had back in June, and I've been having some clients and working at La Peinado as well. It just feels busy!